“The hope of righteous people leads to joy, but the eager waiting of wicked people comes to nothing.” GW Proverbs 10:28 Being completely transparent: I lost my joy, again. It made me wonder, did I ever have it back to begin with? I mean, after having such and awful breakup when I was single, I sat down with God for a season to get myself together. (Read about it here.) God mended me, I became better as He repaired every broken piece of my story. I chose to allow Jesus as a pa

Is God really our Lord? When we say “God you are my Lord, my everything…I surrender to you,” do we really mean it? Are we just saying it as formalities, because we hear others verbalize it when they wave their hands in worship? Is it something nice to say on Sundays during worship? Is it just we give God Lordship over our lives in the 2 hours in church on Sunday and live as though we are really lord of our lives Monday – Saturday? Do we really understand what Lord really mean

“Actually, I just woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to feel like that anymore, or ever again. So I changed. Just like that.” Has anyone else feel like they have seasons of drifting away from God? I mean, it’s not like you intentionally leave Gods presence, but things just get in the way of your relationship with Him? Maybe school? Maybe work? Maybe a new relationship? A child? A new friendship or class you signed up for? Maybe social, political or economic issues? May

Why is it the things we need to eat and drink we have no desire for? I was really a person that didn’t like drinking water at all. It wasn’t flavorful, it wasn’t sweet, it wasn’t tasty. It was plain, and a pain to swallow. I’m sure in my childhood my sisters and I probably had our share, but when I was ‘adult’ enough to buy my own type of drinks, I never reached for water again. Until now. Sigh. In a disturbance starting probably a year ago, my face had the worst breakout in

It’s going to take more than just talk to see the fruits of your new years resolutions this year… as Heather Lindsey posted on social media Just because the new year changed, doesn’t mean you did. I get it completely! A new year simply equates to a fresher start, that’s why it’s easier to make goals – because it’s more likely you’ll achieve them. A new year creates a ‘newness’ in the air – a freshness in your spirit. A new year symbolizes the old year (old chapter) is now tuc

If I had to write a blog ending the 2015 year, it would be this one here. I looked around and couldn’t believe 2015 drifted by, and as of now, I lived 342 days of this year. I had weak moments. I had struggle times. I had joyful moments. I had happy times. Some days I’ve had plenty to accomplish, and some days I’ve had nothing to do. But this year brought me to three key points I would like to share… That there is truly an expiration date to your pain Coming into 2015, I was

We complain to God “Lord why am I going through this?” We say “Lord, if you take this from me!” But little do we realize what He really holds back from His anointed. After a great bible study at my church one evening, my pastor confirmed to us “Anything the enemy brings into our life has to be approved by God.” (He referenced the scripture Job 1: 6-12 where the enemy came to God and was allowed to test Job.) And that made me very curious as to why does God want the enemy to a

Last year, at the end of Fall, I told the lawn maintenance people of my complex to cut the bush OUT in front of my house — It was looking raggedy and unattractive. I told them to cut it at the roots. (Just because I wanted to plant another type of flower in my flower bed when spring started.) So they did. Or so I thought. All winter long, the rose bush was out of sight and out of mind. The bush was gone, and it looked more attractive in the front of my house. (which I loved!)

I can’t help but wonder how many blessings we block by living by the “world’s rules” instead of Kingdom principles? I believe we are just used to operating under world principles: how the music and people around us influence or how we were raised, what our friends say etc. We often get blinded by what our human, carnal, mind ration as “good”, that when we step on to the spiritual side of things, we don’t know how to act! And we then wonder why our “worldly good” isn’t spiritu

I just happened to see this YouTube the day after the Holy Spirit talked to me about conviction. This is what He said: Instruction for your spiritual life comes by hearing and reading the Word of God. One simply cannot have conviction of their ways, lifestyle etc… if they ignorant to what’s right and wrong! Once the Holy Spirit starts feeding…. He, then, can tug on your heart by bringing remembrance to your mind what to and what not to do. But if you don’t feed your Spirit, y

I used to be involved with a cheater. Actually a couple of them. I promised myself I would never put my heart in the arms of one ever again. I received a Google message from who I thought was my ex-boyfriend last year. “He” messaged me like he would normally do.. “Hi!” And so I responded back “Hi!” The next message startled me: “He must’ve really hurt you. This is _____wife. I am seeing these old messages and trying to figure out how long yall been reaching out to each other

“There’s one thing I can say about you- it’s that I can’t say anything bad about you.” I have heard this time and time again from people I’ve encountered here and there in my life. I don’t know how others perceive me, but 9 times out of 10- I feel like I am more ‘good’ than ‘bad’ when folks think about Amber. I was talking to one of my friends recently and I told him, “I don’t want people, when they look back at me, to say I was nothing but a pleasant person.” I want people t

The song resonate in my heart “I just can’t give up now, Come to far from where I started from… Nobody told me, the road would be easy, and I don’t believe He brought me this far to leave me.” (I just love the picture by the way.) About a year ago, I revamped my blog to my journey as a Christian going through lifes ‘challenges’ and how I’m getting through them leaning on God instead of my own strength. And even today, I was deleting old ​Social Media “Notes” full of the same

Have anyone ever did the experiment in science class that had to grow the lima bean plant? They gave you dirt, a plastic cup and a seed. You had to take it home, care for it and bring it back in 2 or 3 weeks for the final grade. I know when I first planted the seed, I was excited! (Don’t ask me why, but I was!) I put the dirt in the cup, put the seed in, watered it a little and put it in my window. In two days I was excited to see some physical results, surely. Nope. Just dir

(Disclaimer: I was going in one direction with this blog, and ended up being 2 subjects in 1, so, here we go! :-D) I was asked last year to take in my mother, as she needed a place to stay for a while. I was used to my own space. I was used to my way of living. I was used to it just being Rex (my dog) and I, and our routine. I had already a schedule. I already had my steady electric, water and gas bill. I was very comfortable living with myself. I didn’t want to break my comf

This song holds very very dear to my heart, Take me to the King by Tamela Mann.  Not because she sings it so awesomely, but the fact of humility, vulnerability and the desperate search for Him. (This was actually the first song I danced to liturgically in 2012, November (get that huh?). And two years later, I still can worship to this song. -My worship dance below.) I was desperate for God. I ran to Him out of confusion, hurt, worthlessness, inferiority – just UGLY. I told Hi

So out of my normal, I pushed all my blogs I have written back 1 week. I just have to share some of the things the Lord has truly revealed to me this week. What you truly pray for, you will be tested on it! In all the chaos of what is going on personally, I asked the Lord “Well, what do you want me to do?” I wasn’t asking the Lord, “What should I do about the problem?” I was really asking Him “What should I do while all this chaos is going on around me?” He told me to serve.

A hard hit on the company, and we are losing our minds! About 1 and a half years ago, the CEO’s made a decision that shaped the company’s destiny, and the employees have reaped the decisions the presidents made then. So now, as a company, we have to work twice as hard, and some had to do it with half the pay! People were cut, workloads increased, and above all, we were scrutinized very closely to the point of uncomfortability. When the company was good, we were good! Sales we

This daily devotional blessed me one morning from yet another Proverbs 31 Ministries email … and it confirmed what I have been wanting to write about recently. So here we go. I hope everyone knows the story of Mufaro’s Beautiful Daughters. (If not, please click on the link to read it!) This story came to mind as I began to ponder about how we step over the smallest opportunities and tasks seeking to make our name great! As a synopsis of the African tale, there was a King who

I was praying to God like every morning on my way to work, and in the middle of my prayer, God began to speak to me! (I don’t know, I just get excited when He starts to speak and reveal things to me! I just get happy and honored He talks to me and I know His voice! Just a sidenote….) So anyway, I was praying to Him about being molded by Him. He was revealed to me, just as the clay gets soft in order to mold, so shall our lives be. We have to break down, be willing to be mushe