Sometimes I feel the whole world is backwards. I mean, everyone is going to do what they want to do anyway, right?
About 2 days ago, I realized my way of thinking has totally evolved into a mature state. Talking with my guy, he told me ‘this is why you are so different’. And I can see why. I look at other people and I’m like, pity. People put more trust in a relationship over God. Why is this so backwards? One minute, ‘I give praise and honor to God’ and next minute ‘…I’ll do anything for her’. Anything huh? What about the people who are so devoted to 1 thing and the next week, act as though it never existed in their life? Friendships? Relationships? Predicaments where you had a BEST friend, and the next thing you know, it’s ghost world.
People get so caught up in moment decisions, they fail to realize they can step back and look at the entire picture. That’s our problem today. To many ‘moment’ decisions and not enough ‘lasting’ ones. But the decision really comes when you realize the decision you made in the moment isn’t the only option. To many people trying to get a team together because they want to do what’s wrong, and no one wants to be right. Its hard to be right. I realized that. And too many people out doing wrong because wrong feels good, and RIGHT puts people in the ‘lame’ position. Doing what’s RIGHT puts people in a bad headspace. Doing what’s RIGHT may cost people family & friends, but then again, these are the people that put trust in fellow men. Their lives are depending on what other people say about them instead of what they say about themselves. And how can we live this way? Living for the approval of what people say about us?
And these stupid relationships we try to figure out anyways. Some things are complicated, but some things are really not. We look and dig deep to find an answer that was already presented to us a long time ago. We still searching to see if this guy is the right person for us, but told you verbally about him the 2nd week of dating. We so in search of trying to change and thinking we can change a person, instead of changing yourself in the situation. When somebody shows themselves, believe them. It’s not that hard. Signs were giving long before the feelings, but yet it’s always that glimpse of ‘hope’ somewhere. Foolish.
Anything that can get you ahead, even trampling on others, we will graciously do. Defeats the purpose of Galatians 5:22-23. Greed, Money and Prosperity blinds us so much, we forget how to live, act, walk, talk and interact with others. We will hurt others feelings before we will deal with our own messed up self. Because we find comfort in knowing others are also messed up too. And to broadcast their problems and cover up ours is what we do. We are so gone on half lies and don’t want to hear whole truths sometimes. Because, TRUTH hurts us. And we would rather face our manipulation of a single lie. Because it sounds good to us. Of course we would rather stay in our comfort zone, even when comfort is uncomfortable. I heard this the other day. We are so comfortably uncomfortable, because that is all we know. We would rather live paycheck to paycheck. Penny to Penny. Because that is all we know. No need to get ahead in life. Just fine where we are. No need of building a legacy for our children, and our children’s children. Because we are living JUST enough.
Gossip more than prayers. Talk more than silence. Discomfort more than comfort. Hate more than love. Us.